我 她 她 他

你不喜欢我把我的事都告诉她
因为她和她关系也太好
可能她会把我的事告诉她
我从来没有告诉过我和你的事给她听
但是你担心有一天我会告诉她

你暗示了我
我也知道你要什么
对不起，我给不到你
我只能告诉你
你爱错人
我不是那种可以为了爱而放弃朋友的人
我没那么伟大

我 她 她 他

复杂的世界

every time i see you
i really feel like biting you!!
i really feel like scolding you!!
but i cant =.=
look at your naive kiddo cute face
i really cant do that
ARGH

要是你是男人多好

看见她最近的 tweet
女人的吃醋心是有几厉害的
我曾经也这样问过你 闹也闹过 癫也癫过 哈哈哈哈
我说真的到现在我还是想知道那个答案
虽然知道你是不会说的
她在乎你比我在乎你多
这谁也懂啦 因为我不怎样粘你 反而是你粘我比较多
但是因为我和你有个太好的关系
让她想要你选一个 LOL!!!
我好想替你告诉她
其实真的不是的
这只是个人的看法

我本人想告诉她
我没有要和你比
要是我有这种心态
我就不会帮你那么多
给你那么多有关于的资料
要比的话
我就不会给你了
自己收更要对吧？
但是我没告诉她
这只会让她想得更多


我都告诉过你了 要是你是男人多好
啊哈哈哈哈  真的他妈的幸福
我也很坦白地告诉过你
你这位朋友虽然在我心中有个地位
你还是不属于最高层那里 LOL
也因为认识你这位朋友  我才会打华语 =.=
才会进步那么多，我懂还是很烂 XD

did i mention before that a swimming academy offered me a swimming instructor scholarship? have been a very hard time to decide to apply for that or not. after 3 weeks consideration, i decided to apply for it as it is what i want long time ago. the pay is good, as in so much better that those suckish promoter jobs, even better than those who works in da club. unhealthy, dangerous, smokey, dirty people with dirty minded perhaps? LOL well, its fact. i guide and instruct kids and i get paid. healthy job im doing right. i dont take it as a job, i take it as an interest, a hobby. was based in bukit jalil at first, doing good there. hahahaha indoor stadium, so i wont get tanned or sun burn :D but then, they transfer me to panasonic shah alam which is an outdoor stadium. the pool is deep -.- but 1 thing i love is people there are friendly and young hahahaha! peepos in bkt jalil are friendly too, but they are all like 25++ LOL! well, overall for both places not bad la. my next target will be DiveMaster :D

recently walking too close with S. he came KL to study, dont really has friend here. the cat sms-ed him that day. hope it's not something bad. i totally ignored the cat. he even came to Puchong. i was like wtf?! staying at Puchong now? i hope i wont bump into him, not even receiving a message from him. been receiving message from facebook few days ago but i replied text that he doesnt know what to reply. hahahahaha! i can only be sarcasm to him. i seriously dont wanna meet this psycho cat anymore. from nilai to puchong Zzzzz madness weih!

My brain is totally blank, no idea what kind of life i have. Sorry for scolding and being rude to you people. Too many unfortunate stuffs happened on me. One thing i really afraid of for now which is when my close friends treat me too good. The fear where i couldnt have the strength to fight with......................... i mean, im happy to be alone.
 

July July

July is totally a death month to me. Been having a very hard times struggling with this and that.

Road Block - checked
Clinic - checked
Hosp Emergency - checked
Electrocardiography ECG check up - checked
Car Accident - checked

i left 1 more - X-ray. i hope i no need to step in to Sun Med again.
If my heart doesnt burn or cramp again. Im safe from x-ray.

Please........ leave me as fast as possible, July.

Me no like you.
Me no love you.
Me hates you to da max!

screwdriver

designer or screwdriver?

INTI ADVERTISING POSTER

helping my stupid friend to complete her assignment in 

1 day before the submission date (Y)

no complaints

she's the one who taught me mathematics

and the ranting pillow of mine in INTI even now XD

for me this is just a simple poster,

but for her this is wuahhhh! god =__=

difference between the business and media technology student

even printed out and stick in her room

what can i say? hahaha 

another upcoming assignment from her

that assignment is really sucking my brain juice

own graphic assignment

spiderman isnt my choice at first

but after visited to the cinema i decided to work on spiderman

edited quite a few times

because of my own dissatisfaction 

come to the final design

im still worrying for not getting an Ace on this subject

a being forced website design (without footer) 

which i have to submit in half day time

all thanks to my "assignment aggressive" leader

 now he want to come out with 1 fully graphical design in 1 day

LOL

what? i cant take this seriously

spelled my angry sentiments

and now i have 2weeks to come out with 

3 fully graphical design :D 

i enjoy what im doing :D

but when come to the group work

please dont treat me as your screwdriver

a little place to keep my work

the use of internet

nah, this is the IT geek

*run!*

and i cant help myself from running man

LOL

她比我还要厉害乱想
看她最近是真的很没心情

你，好好安慰她吧 :D
我们一天不线不会死的
哈哈哈哈

在乎越多，失去越多

_____________________________________

男人女人

你，癫够了吗？
追求你的男人，也是人
自己的钱难赚，他们的钱不难赚吗？
他们应该养你的娱乐费吗？
你自己想想好不好
他追求你，他没有钱难道他会告诉你吗？
宁愿不吃都帮你付就有啦 =__=

追求你的男人，就要帮你付钱
什么道理？你告诉我
这是谁说的道理？

追求你的男人因为你没有男友而追求你
这种男人，能要的吗？

你每次只会疯癫，投诉这样那样
你自己有没有站在别人的立场那里想？
不是我不要挺你，是因为我看不到为什么我要挺你

me with my philosophy
fuck off if you dont like
im just saying what i think
accept or not is your choice
shoot me back if you think im wrong
is ok for you to ignore me now
find me back whenever you want :)

a video that worth my tears

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNMm2NlUZoU&feature=share

i tried to hold my tears, but end up i still failed

everyone post LOVE LIFE

or maybe they post just because of their idols

i dont give a fuck

after watching this video

which took 1hour of my time

i finally understand what's LOVE LIFE

believe me

this video worth your 1 hour time

with loves,

ESTHER

累了，泪了

最近很累真的很累，终于累倒到也泪了

physical and mentally tired.

总总的压力令我真的很压力
那只打死不走的猫最近也成了我压力之一
还是第一次有我做到那么绝然后打死不走的男生

昨晚睡了
就是不想现在的我发生

不说了
做功课去

DAMN

DAMN! IM COLLAPSED RIGHT NOW!

FUCK! WHY? SAW SOMETHING I SHOULDNT HAVE SEE!

FUCK WHY?!!!!

hello 2012 :)

Hey readers! How are you guys doing? So this will be my first post for 2012! Sorry for not updating :D Im living happily, no depress, no stress, no sad, no emo etc. Well, what i can say? Chilling.

I just feel like blogging now, so here i am. did ya miss me? LOL

Semester 3. 

Too much of holidays. Yes, im complaining. I cant recalled what i've learn after so much of holidays and funs i had. 3 subjects for this semester, yeah kinda free and relax. No, ITS NOT! Feeling stress and thinking too much lately. All about studies. You guys know how sucks im in dealing with numbers. This is the 5th week of sem 3. I realized that i cant think logically which make me having difficulties to solve some Adv Maths questions and also Programming Coding. Was so freak out with that. 

I was the first one who made appointment to demo my system for the first week. So lol.. I dont know why most of my classmates thought that im clever and smart. Then my phone non stop ringing for few days, keep asking me to teach and asking how to do this and that. So ridiculous! Just because of im the first one who demo? I've to admit that im good in practical but not theory :P Im not as good as what you guys think, just an ordinary IT student whom sucks in mathematics. 

Besides, i've some ego classmates. After the Programming test, she teased me "Esther, i know you very pro. Keep ask Sir questions." I was like huh? I dont understand what the question want, of course i needa ask to get it solved. When it comes to mathematics, I asked them to teach me and this is what they said "I also dont know how to do lar... How to teach you?" with full solving methods on the paper. Yor, wtf? I meant not all of them, only the ego ones. Never mind, i bear with it :)

I hate and blamed that why im not god in dealing with numbers? why i cant think simple? why.. why.. and why... Adv Maths, i know it's not that hard. but how can i get the question solved if i cant think logically? 1 took 1hour to finished up 1 question which is only 8marks. While for Maths, im totally blanked as usual. Havta type coding to complete my final project every week from this week on. Im feeling lifeless anyway.  I cant sleep well every night. Expected life for an IT student. 

Enough of all these rantings, time is precious. It does not wait anyone of us. Should invest my time more in coding LOL macam very serious hor? hahahaha but not kidding. Hitting the sack now! :D

P/S: My soul isnt with me. 

With Loves,

CPL :)