我有在成长？

哈哈很好笑
最近那般亲戚爱赌，爱喝
而我做了 spare tire 不够人，就我轮班
运气不好又我来
昨晚不知道谁 sampat 说要和 champagne
okay 我还是第一次
因为每次他们都和 whiskey
什么 MOET BRUT IMPERIAL ROSE
贵到 ==
一支可以喝两支 glenfiddich 18 years duty free 价钱
macallan 可以 三支 etc etc
自己去买，又不是那些大粒也拿给我们喝
一买就买两支，5条人 share 差不多 rm200
我还是第一次喝色酒要付钱
随便啦，反正平时又不用出的
moet imperial 那么便宜又不买
闲它便宜酒 LOL 便宜也不是moet 的zzzz 我亲戚的 pattern
最近又不懂走什么运
玩两晚 chor dai di 都输
输都没比那支香槟贵哈哈哈

今天和朋友聊天 - 酒
自然的就聊到克拉冰
然后给朋友讲
zomok 你的 gang 全部那么 healthy thinking, naive
20岁了还没下 club
我不懂给她什么反应 =______= 我进不到的话题
我最厉害还不是去 beer factory, movida, alive pub
（3/4 年前我记得我还很 obsessed 那位泰国男主唱）
一直跟我讲一直跟我讲
跟我讲的情景我都没看过 LOL~~~!!

有时我还在想 为什么以前 form 4 form 5
那么爱跟堂姐去 pub =__= 很像很厉害那样
但是还是要谢谢那般老子，要不然现在我喝2 杯就倒
亲戚都很爱 “来来来我拿酒给你喝” 尤其是长辈

现在我看我的 junior 18岁就去 club, pub
心想哎哟你几岁哦学人下 club, 又去pub 喝酒
然后又会想做么我以前那么幼稚
不够岁扮成熟厉害就跟去 pub? 哈哈哈哈


我不知道我现在是什么
成熟（有咩？人家跟我说 "you never been to club? comon, club makes you grow!"）
天真（有那么夸张吗？又不怎么是）幼稚（很像不太适合我）





最好笑的是我 gang 的人说我
" 你二十岁了勒！做么不要接受他？你不要试一下你那里懂"
就是说我二十岁没有pak tor 过
然后有好男生也不接受
什么哦现在，如果能，我早就接受了啦
跟你们讲了那些我们不能在一起的原因你们也不明白


我现在有在犹豫着是像你们说是我想太多
还是我不想要我和他的第一次旅程过得不好
毕竟我们两个的"in a relationship" 还没有破蛋
不为自己着想，也要为他着想 gua?



现在我更不知道自己是什么 LOL!

我 她 她 他

你不喜欢我把我的事都告诉她
因为她和她关系也太好
可能她会把我的事告诉她
我从来没有告诉过我和你的事给她听
但是你担心有一天我会告诉她

你暗示了我
我也知道你要什么
对不起，我给不到你
我只能告诉你
你爱错人
我不是那种可以为了爱而放弃朋友的人
我没那么伟大

我 她 她 他

复杂的世界

every time i see you
i really feel like biting you!!
i really feel like scolding you!!
but i cant =.=
look at your naive kiddo cute face
i really cant do that
ARGH

要是你是男人多好

看见她最近的 tweet
女人的吃醋心是有几厉害的
我曾经也这样问过你 闹也闹过 癫也癫过 哈哈哈哈
我说真的到现在我还是想知道那个答案
虽然知道你是不会说的
她在乎你比我在乎你多
这谁也懂啦 因为我不怎样粘你 反而是你粘我比较多
但是因为我和你有个太好的关系
让她想要你选一个 LOL!!!
我好想替你告诉她
其实真的不是的
这只是个人的看法

我本人想告诉她
我没有要和你比
要是我有这种心态
我就不会帮你那么多
给你那么多有关于的资料
要比的话
我就不会给你了
自己收更要对吧？
但是我没告诉她
这只会让她想得更多


我都告诉过你了 要是你是男人多好
啊哈哈哈哈  真的他妈的幸福
我也很坦白地告诉过你
你这位朋友虽然在我心中有个地位
你还是不属于最高层那里 LOL
也因为认识你这位朋友  我才会打华语 =.=
才会进步那么多，我懂还是很烂 XD

did i mention before that a swimming academy offered me a swimming instructor scholarship? have been a very hard time to decide to apply for that or not. after 3 weeks consideration, i decided to apply for it as it is what i want long time ago. the pay is good, as in so much better that those suckish promoter jobs, even better than those who works in da club. unhealthy, dangerous, smokey, dirty people with dirty minded perhaps? LOL well, its fact. i guide and instruct kids and i get paid. healthy job im doing right. i dont take it as a job, i take it as an interest, a hobby. was based in bukit jalil at first, doing good there. hahahaha indoor stadium, so i wont get tanned or sun burn :D but then, they transfer me to panasonic shah alam which is an outdoor stadium. the pool is deep -.- but 1 thing i love is people there are friendly and young hahahaha! peepos in bkt jalil are friendly too, but they are all like 25++ LOL! well, overall for both places not bad la. my next target will be DiveMaster :D

recently walking too close with S. he came KL to study, dont really has friend here. the cat sms-ed him that day. hope it's not something bad. i totally ignored the cat. he even came to Puchong. i was like wtf?! staying at Puchong now? i hope i wont bump into him, not even receiving a message from him. been receiving message from facebook few days ago but i replied text that he doesnt know what to reply. hahahahaha! i can only be sarcasm to him. i seriously dont wanna meet this psycho cat anymore. from nilai to puchong Zzzzz madness weih!

My brain is totally blank, no idea what kind of life i have. Sorry for scolding and being rude to you people. Too many unfortunate stuffs happened on me. One thing i really afraid of for now which is when my close friends treat me too good. The fear where i couldnt have the strength to fight with......................... i mean, im happy to be alone.
 

July July

July is totally a death month to me. Been having a very hard times struggling with this and that.

Road Block - checked
Clinic - checked
Hosp Emergency - checked
Electrocardiography ECG check up - checked
Car Accident - checked

i left 1 more - X-ray. i hope i no need to step in to Sun Med again.
If my heart doesnt burn or cramp again. Im safe from x-ray.

Please........ leave me as fast as possible, July.

Me no like you.
Me no love you.
Me hates you to da max!